An old radio situated on a table outside the school room on the Filofito compound, where I live and work. (Taken 19th of September, 2013 By Ian Stitt) |
It has
been a little over 10 days since I have arrived at my placement. The reality of the position that I committed
to back in January has begun to set in.
It is a reality that although tough to swallow has already shown its
rewards. There is beauty in this place,
beauty that is not on the surface, but deeply imbedded in the litter covered
soil. The Malagasy are a complex people,
a people with well formed assumptions and fears of anything not
predictable. The silence that permeates
the air between us strengthens this thought.
Things often go unsaid, especially on my part. This may be the toughest part of this
experience. For it feels as if my true
self is not seen, not understood, not realized.
If you have ever removed a leg of a table then you know that this table
is still functional but unsteady. This
is my metaphorical existence, having the crutch of a majority, more than
necessary, existence. This is a cold
thought. It was best stated in the book How Coffee Saved My Life: and other stories
of stumbling to grace by Ellie Roscher:
“I got through the first few days calling up courage from
moment to moment. I observed without
understanding a word. Every now and then
I would try to talk, each sentence a struggle, an embarrassment, a cry for
help. I was herded around, never really knowing
what was going on. I ate, slept, and breathed. Such automatic acts became victory enough (p21). … Success
was redefined. Going from an abundance
of friends, food, family, power, and comfort to none, my situation felt like a
primeval struggle for survival. … Every day was new and scary and exciting and exhausting
(p22).”
Life is slow here, things progress
minute by minute. The American experience
of reality, where days fly by, is not useful in Madagascar. Though, this may just be my experience of Malagasy
life. Regardless love abounds, there is
a beautiful relationship between parents and kids. I can’t explain this experience other than by
saying that the
The view from my taxi brousse window of some fields while on my way to Toliara from Fianar. (Taken 13th of September, 2013 By Ian Stitt) |
glimmer in a mother’s eyes as she cares for her child is cross
cultural. Older children take care of
the younger. Community is abundant and
since the day I arrived I have been accepted, as much as a Caucasian can in a
Malagasy family. I am treated like a son
of my host mother, Jeannette and also a guest of honor. Though I would say that the honor is all
mine. I spend my nights while the power
is out in the yard watching the beautiful and enormous amount of stars or
laughing with Mickael and Raian as we kick around a ball made of what seems to
be bags. Mickael and Raian joke that it
is a “Malagasy ball”, though deep down I know this to be a sad statement on the
realities of Madagascar. It is an
enlightening experience to laugh and play with these two young boys without any
words. These are the moments that seem
to make up for the inevitably long days, 3-4 hour church services, and unending
heat.
The road I took to get to Toliara, may be the only one to Toliara, taken after a restroom break on the 11-12 hour journey. (Taken 12th of September, 2013 By Ian Stitt) |
The usual 6:15 wake ups to Malagasy
hiphop dance music has been a difficult transition. Though, it did prepare me for the first teen cultural
emersion. I was asked to join the kids
of my family for a night at a dance festival, by the ocean. It was an interesting feeling to be the only
white guy, taller than most, at a young adult (loose term for any kid who
wanted to attend no matter the age) festival.
I got to experience the tapa tapa (twierk)
dance along with many of the others, still nameless to me, that my host
brothers and sisters had shown me in the days preceding this event. There is a tragic disconnect between present American
culture and the culture seen on music videos and advertisements. The adoption and integration of false American
cultural fads can be seen in every part of young Malagasy life, from the big
belt buckles and flashy jewelry to the orange Mohawks. Semi-comical and yet tragically real is the
realization that I have become embarrassed by the younger American generational
fads, just like my parents.
This is an image of the Little boy and his mother in the seat in front of me on my bus to Toliara. I was making faces at him when I took this. (Taken 12th of September, 2013 By Ian Stitt) |
Madagascar in all of its
complexities and beautiful facets is still a dream. It is unimaginable that my existence here,
though short, will last an unimaginably long, rice filled, year. However, it does help that Milou, the puppy, has
taken a strong liking to me. She curls
up and falls asleep usually near my feet as it gets dark every night. It is comforting, though the fear of getting bitten
by the ticks that are thriving on her is a bit disconcerting. This is especially true for my host sister,
who remarks that nearly every one of the bites, itches, or tickles of my skin
is a result of the bugs from the dogs. This
does not stop me, for I see it as a calling to show the Malagasy that their abusive
nature with dogs is not necessary and is actually counterproductive. My host mother agrees when I say that the
Malagasy and especially the family look to me as an example of how to treat the
world. It can be seen in the fact that
trash is no longer
being thrown on the ground but into a pile to be burned and
the fact that the dogs are no longer being kicked. Let’s hope it continues!
This is the dog Tolie, looking as cute as ever while relaxing in the shade on a hot Malagasy day. (Taken 19th of September, 2013 By Ian Stitt) |
This is my host mother Jeannette and her grandson Joshiano. Joshiano does not know how to crawl or walk yet but loves to dance and mumble. (Taken 19th of September, 2013 By Ian Stitt) |